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  • One year ago

    I hadn’t planned to post tonight. I’m finalizing the design for Jeseca’s (and my) headstone, otherwise known as a marker. Thumbing through Jeseca’s journals for a quote I might use, I came across the following entry dated May 1, 2007: “Hello Lord, my King and Savior. I lay at your feet, feeling so done, so […]

  • A Beautiful Journey

    Boy, the passing of time never slows down, does it? It is 100% consistent. The sun comes up and goes down, right on time, every day, just as God said it would. When Jeseca passed away holding my hand in the hospital, all I wanted was for God to stop the clock; to stop the […]

  • Jeseca’s eternal work

    A few days ago, someone from my son’s karate class approached me to give me her condolences, and to tell me how special and strong our family is in the midst of this. She mentioned that Everen was smiling and working so hard, and told me how lucky we are. I told her it was […]

  • Joy, Sorrow, and True Love

    With the rush to get everything prepared for Jeseca’s service and burial now behind me, I’ve had a couple of days to contemplate all that my life has come to be, and how it has led to this moment in time. (Sigh)…….. Jeseca’s passing has left a hole in my heart that only Jesus can […]

  • Jeseca’s Memorial Service

    Jeseca’s Memorial Service will be on Wednesday, August 22 at 4:00 p.m., at Serra Mesa Christian Fellowship. (http://www.smcftoday.com/?subpages/How-To-Get-to-SMCF.shtml). I miss her so terribly. But I am incredibly proud of her and the job she did in raising our boys to love the Lord. It is her influence, her reflection of Jesus, and her undying love […]

  • “Happy Heaven Day”

    Jeseca passed away today at 3:01 p.m. I cannot express the amount of pain and anguish I feel. Jeseca is, was, and will always be the love of my life. The boys have suggested that we have a party in celebration of their Mom. I agree. Everen wants to call it “Happy Heaven Day.” He […]

  • I’m back

    It’s been more than a month…nearly two, in fact…since I last had the chance to post here. I’ve thought about it many times, but have become so busy with the day tasks and the night hours at the airport… Alas, here I am again. The time between my last post and tonight’s has brought Jes […]

  • What next?

    Quite a bit has changed since I last posted here, not the least of which has been the addition of a four-person hospice team… I have to admit that I don’t really know what else to say anymore. Jeseca’s health continues to worsen and all I can do is pray about it. I just cry […]

  • 11 down, looking toward 12

    I make it a point to do something special with Jes each year on our anniversary. In years past we’ve visited Maui, Lake Tahoe, Vail, Laguna Beach, Palm Springs, etc, and always in the finest accomodations we could afford. This year I thought we’d stay a few nights at L’Auberge Del Mar Resort & Spa. […]

  • Quoting Paul

    2 Corinthians 1:8-11 (NIV)“…We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a […]

  • Our high-stakes poker game

    Last Thursday I spoke with the oncologist’s office to get a better understanding of cachexia and how to deal with it. As I described Jeseca’s condition, they confirmed that it was indeed cachexia, and began explaining the different stages and what we should expect next. The outlook is grim. They expect Jes to slip into […]

  • Questions

    A few posts ago, I mentioned that I didn’t know if Jes will make it to our 11th anniversary. While I plan to speak with our oncologist this week to discuss the latest development, that date is still in question. Based on everything we see, and all that she is experiencing, she is now in […]

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