A few days ago, someone from my son’s karate class approached me to give me her condolences, and to tell me how special and strong our family is in the midst of this. She mentioned that Everen was smiling and working so hard, and told me how lucky we are. I told her it was God, and the amazing job that Jeseca did in revealing the Kingdom of Heaven and the hope we have in Jesus to our boys. And that was it. She walked away offering her help in any way and said goodbye.
But the seed that God comforts — even in the worst of times — had been planted.
When people see us now, they see strength; but it is God’s strength in our time of weakness, not our own. And He wants to be there for them, too, when they experience their own heartache and pain. He is always there, knocking on the door of your heart, waiting for you to cast your cares on Him and rest.
This new reality — life without my best friend and true love — continues to reveal itself slowly every day. It comes in the middle of all of the tasks now before me, and I can’t help but wonder when the pain that rests somewhere deep within my heart will come to the surface. It is such a blessing, though, to know that the work Jeseca did is still paying dividends. It always will.
Many things have changed for me. First and foremost is that I am more in love with Jeseca now than I was before. She endured so much for the boys and me, and she did it all out of love. So I have purposed in my heart to continue what she started. Believe me when I tell you that she started a lot.
This website will change, as will hers. And I trust that God’s hand of blessing will be upon me as I strive to know Him more, and to honor my one and only love in this life — my extraordinary wife, Jeseca. Please stay tuned…JG